Tonight I had a burst of ambition and thought I’d make hummus instead of buying it. Knowing I have placed each ingredient into something gives me a certain peace of mind. Lately, I’ve been so busy that I haven’t had that luxury. So, I looked up a recipe, bought the ingredients, and began. Somewhere in this process of “pulsing” there was slightly bigger pulse. I withdrew the wooden spoon that was assisting me in the process, and well, a chunk of wood had vanished into the somewhat blended chickpeas. Hmph…. Intentions.
Honestly, I find this in life sometimes. I pursue the things that appear to be the best. But somewhere along the way I loose a piece of something, there’s a bump in the road, or things just fall apart. The enemy loves this. He’s on the situation before I even have the time to count my losses, and quickly I feel lost in a sea of doubts.
This week in the Discipleship Training School I am staffing we are studying the character of God. I’m finding His character is the very thing that I must cling to in these moments where my best intentions seem to turn sour. Deuteronomy 23:5 boast of Him, by saying, “the LORD your Godturned the curse into a blessing for you because the LORD your God loves you.” Wow! I find rest in this passage because I think ,” if He is in the business of turning a curses into a blessings, these little disappointments have nothing on my Heavenly Father!”
Look up my friends, because He cares for us! “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
Last night, I stood in prayer chapel as a new student belted out How He Loves from her tiny body. I think her guitar might be bigger than she is? As I stood there, I felt the presence of the Lord, so sweet, so near. Tears began to run down my checks. Wow, this Jesus, He loves. I mean He really loves. I felt convicted for running to other loves, when this love awaits me. This jealous indescribable love that gave up everything for me. How can I stand Him up? How could I leave Him waiting? He is a jealous lover. He continues to strip away even the seemingly good things in my life that subtly steal away my time with Him.
“Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealously unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame.”
Song of Solomon 8:6
“Be careful not to forget the covenant of the LORD your God that he made with you; do not make for yourselves an idol in the form of anything the LORD your God has forbidden. For the LORD your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God.”
“He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.”
-exert from John Mark McMillan’s How He Loves
One more cool thing about Jesus. (A sure sign of love is when you brag about the person right?) Well, as I sat down to write this blog the radio is gently playing in the background. Guess what song came on immediately when I began?
How He Loves
Hmm… He loves me. And He loves you too.
Awaken us Lord to you incomparably great love for us!!