amnesia again.

2 years of ministry school completed.  6 more days of math and reading with 3rd graders, then that chapter closes as well.  ready or not summer is here.

today i dropped up a few more applications for a summer job.  somewhere along the way i cried over a bag of milk chocolate m&m’s.  somehow feelings of being overwhelmed took over and the tears spilled down my cheeks.  the m&m’s didn’t prove to bring the hope i’d desired. shocking right?

i cried to my dad on the phone, while he scrambled endlessly to help me find solutions to get me out of the pit i’d  climbed into.  precious efforts, but it didn’t seem to bring relief either.

then sometime after i got home, i was going through some pictures and stumbled upon some from last month…


suddenly my fears of provision seemed foolish.  because they are.

how did i forget?

sunsets and swimming with dolphins.

He takes care of me.

He lavishes ridiculously good gifts upon me.

He spoils me.

He withholds no good things from me.

on my walk, i realized the reality that i lack no good thing.

i may think i “need” something.  but the truth is i have all that i need and then some.

my thoughts turned toward Deuteronomy and those Israelites entering the promised the land oh so many years ago.

“But remember the LORD your God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth, and so confirms his covenant, which he swore to your ancestors, as it is today.”

-Deuteronomy 8:18

oh remembering… it melts my anxiety faster than the m&m’s in my hand.