Well, after 3 months of traveling and gleaning, I have found some answers. But, I must admit I also found a lot more questions. Good questions. In me, there is a growing hunger. A hunger for answers. A hunger for more of God. A hunger to see His Kingdom come. A hunger to see this generation be all He desires it to be. Although sometimes the questions seem overwhelming, I find I am so excited to see the move of God in this nation. There is a longing for more, a longing to see this nation and generation rise up and take it’s place!
25 Questions from my journal…
What is the “road less traveled?”
What is the tipping point?
What is sacrifice?
What is faith?
What is obedience?
What is the “fire” of God?
When is it time to step out?
Where is the risk?
When do I start “being” Jesus to those I meet?
How much of what I believe is simply theoretical?
When do I put feet to these prayers?
What is the “power” of God?
What do I really believe?
Do I really believe that HE lives in me?
How do we bring His Kingdom to earth?
What is my source?
Who am I?
What do I have to offer?
What has been invested in me?
How do I share this?
What do I have to give?
What do I have to lose?
What do I have to gain?
What do I have to fear?
If I don’t who will?
While visiting Bethel Church in Redding, a lady praying for me challenged me to ask God questions, not just for me, but on behalf of my generation. I am now starting to understand what the Lord was saying through her. I look forward to the answers that come my way as I continue on this journey. For more info on next steps, see “where i am” to the right.
My team from DC came down to the great state of Texas this last week to meet and talk about what God has been doing in our lives. Back in December, we felt the Lord was sending us out for a season. The past week was a time of gathering back together and sharing what we experienced over the past 3 months. I learned so much and was really encouraged. It’s always good to see family again. I will write more soon about exactly what I learned and how that will affect where I’m headed!
Well, I am a little scared to write. It seems each time I share what God is teaching me, a practical lesson is soon to follow! Recently I have been drawn to the story of the vine in John 15. I long to walk in the secret place of abiding, that the peace of God may be firmly established within me. As I ponder the mystery of this, surrender seems to be a continuous theme. My tendency seems to be more of striving and less of surrendering. But there is a great beauty in letting go, and allowing His spirit to flow through me. A great purging is necessary to unclog the pipes of my own will. The freedom is always worth the process. I am shocked at how sneakily my will can creep back into my heart. The other important aspect of abiding is to obey His commands. “This is My commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you.” John 15:12 God is love. If I want to abide in Him, I must love. For me to not love, is as silly as the branch saying, “we are not a vine.” This love for my brothers and sisters cannot sustain out of my own strength, but must come from a deeper well, His great love for me. So I’m learning, surrendering, loving, and trusting to see the fruit that only comes from abiding in the True Vine.