History with God


Barefoot, I slipped out of the condo door to do a little exploring. Coffee in hand, I listened to the familiar sound of Hawaiian birds chirping in the trees around. I love Hawaii for all the obvious reasons, but for me it has been a real place of connecting to God.

When I was 19, I hugged my family goodbye and got on a plane heading to the big island for six months of missionary training (Insert here your suffering for Jesus jokes). This was huge for me.  I was, and still am believe it or not, a homebody. My parents were my best friends in high school. I was a major daddy’s girl and told my mom about everything.

There were ups and downs during my 6 month adventure to the islands, but most importantly there was connection to God. I learned and leaned in a way like never before.

As I sit here now with waves crashing as my soundtrack, I am so thankful that God chooses to create history with me.

People often ask our pastor to pray for them and give them the Elijah/Elisha anointing to which he responds, “I can pray for you, but what I can’t give you is my history with God”.


More than the works of these hands, my heart longs to partner with Him. I want to know Him and be known by Him. We love seeing God move, but more than any of that we love Him.

And history tells a pretty good story of His love for me, His commitment to me, and His ability to work all things together for my good.

What I am not saying is that all is peachy all of the time when you run with God. No, there are continually new hurdles, new lessons, and new obstacles as we run the race. There are many opportunities for the peace that passes all understanding. But, He promises to give us everything we need for the journey. He is committed to us and to building something in us that’s bigger than we know.

This is exactly why our history with Him is so important. It reminds us that we win in the end. It reminds us that we are no longer slaves to fear. It reminds us that He makes all things beautiful in His time (which has often NOT coordinated with the timing I think is appropriate!).

It just reminds me of the, “seek ye first” principle. As I give my life over to Him and His service again and again, “all these things” are added. Maybe not in the way or the time that I thought, but definitely over and beyond what my mind could comprehend.

I hope you are enjoying your Saturday and that you have some time to reflect on your history with Him.

“Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen”. (Ephesians 3:20, 21 NASB)


last week, chuck and i had the opportunity to share an encounter with God that has marked us.  as we worshipped, and then began sharing testimonies and encounters, the presence of God flooded the room.  it was a moment where the Maker of heaven and earth felt so close that you don’t know whether to sit or stand or laugh or cry.  when God comes near…

it was refreshing and freeing to share about a moment where the Holy Spirit came and revealed Jesus.  i was laying on the prayer room floor in DC in 2008.  i looked up and i saw the face of Jesus.  at first, i didn’t even want to look.  i felt unworthy and overwhelmed at the sight of His face.  slowly as if the Father was turning my face i looked at this Man.  as i looked, i saw dried blood on His face.  i was immediately overcome with a sense of His great love and my own gratitude.  the thought that ran through my head was, “that should have been my blood.”

i realized that i never again had the right to doubt His love for me.  He has already proven that and i don’t need one more thing to believe that.

that blood it purchased things for us!


from fear of man.

from shame.

from insecurity.

from death.

from the lies of the enemy.

and the list can go on and on…

how often to i go to a store and buy something then just say to the clerk, “ah, you can just keep it”?  umm, NEVER!  i like shopping as much as the next girl, and as soon as that transaction has gone through i am happily bopping out the door, excited to show my husband my latest find. 🙂

the tragic thing is that often we do this with the blood of Jesus.  He has purchased so many things, and we can often leave them at the counter.

“For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship.”

Romans 8:14-15

When Jesus left this world He gave us the Spirit so that we can live a life that is no longer in bondage to fear!

When a lie passes through my mind that wants to drag me back into captivity, i think to myself “Jesus bought me a free pass out of that awful place.”

i don’t know about you, but i want to live my life fully enjoying all that was purchased for me!

i pray that today we will fully live in the land of freedom.  the gate is open, and the Holy Spirit is ready to usher us all in.