Month: May 2009

This is the only way I can describe the feeling inside me right now. My heart feels so full. I am overwhelmed by all the I have to be grateful for. I got to hold a sweet little newborn today, visit a dear friend, and squeeze each of my nieces and nephews. Does it get better than this? I am grateful for my time in Mexico, the precious friends I made, the clarity I feel from hours with the Lord, and the new things God is doing in my heart.

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Romans 12:2

I feel totally spoiled today! The girls at the base here sure know the way to this heart. They took me out for one last hoorah at a local coffee shop. I was so blessed that they took time out of their busy schedules to take me out. I almost cried…

Then I got to visit a local boy’s home. The main attraction seemed to be my friend Angelica’s belly. She due in July with her first baby. She always had a crowd. They were convinced that she had taken one of their balls and placed it under her shirt. Soon they were walking around with basketballs tucked under their shirts! I played soccer, held a little one, prayed for the healing of a boy who was hit by a car a couple months ago, and talked/prayed with the women who runs the home. It was beautiful! I’m so grateful. These are the moments when I ask myself, “is this really my job?”

“At every tea-table you see it. Why is tea poured into that cup? Because it is empty, and given up for the tea. But put ink, or vinegar, or wine into it, and will they pour the tea into the vessel? And can God fill you, can God bless you, if you are not absolutely surrendered to Him? He cannot.”

-excerpt from Absolute Surrender, by Andrew Murray

One of my favorite things about my job is that I get to make friends around the world. These are a couple of the friends I have made here during my time in Mexico!! I am so grateful.

We took one of the girls out for her birthday to a local spa. I got my first ever pedicure. I loved it, and love my shiny toes. It’s good to be a girl.

S aying goodbye to my ways
U nderstanding His intentions
R emembering giving my life to Him
R ights- letting go
E mbracing His ways
N o more independence
D ying to self
E njoying the freedom of letting go
R esting in who He is!

While there are multiple reasons for me coming to Mexico. One of the biggest reasons is to force me to get away from all my little distractions and really wait upon the Lord. Sometimes in a fast pace culture and ministry it’s easy to avoid the One I need the most. Thanks to this trip and the swine flu (being quarantined this past weekend), I have finally stopped for more than a simple devotion, and given the Lord the freedom to “create in me a pure heart,” once again. I must say that the biggest theme has been surrender. I just don’t get it. At salvation, I gave Him my whole life. Yet, somehow I slowly begin to take back the life I once gave Him so freely. So this has been a time of the Lord pulling back the covers of my heart, and showing me what truly lies there. Not without some wresting, I have laid down my “rights” once again. He is restoring in me “the joy of my salvation.” I am so grateful!

Recommended meditation: Psalm 51

YWAM Gualalajara just finished it’s first ever 24 hours of prayer! It was a great success. In looking through the journal, it’s amazing to see the consistency in what God is speaking to this base. The staff seem refreshed from the opportunity and reminder to return to our 1st love. I was also asked to share at a corporate time some testimony of how I have personally seen prayers answered. We all know how I love to tell a good story… 🙂

Some major themes were…
1. more worship
2. more of the Holy Spirit
3. a desire for the supernatural
4. a challenge for integrity and purity
5. John 15-abiding in the Vine that we may bear much fruit!