honestly…

Monday mornings… a beast they can be.

I rolled out of bed and straight into task mode.  Making  a to-do list and throwing laundry in the washer moments later.  As I rushed around thinking of the homework I need to get done,  I suddenly felt so anxious.  What is this Lord?

This is my first acknowledgment of Him this am.  Hmm… perhaps that is the problem?  I wrapped up a couple of tasks and forced myself to sit down and just be still through a worship song.  Not long into it, I felt John 15 beckoning.  I turned to the familiar passage and quickly realized where my anxiety was coming from.

Last night’s message at church was about fear and worry.  I felt convicted of pride and arrogance as I take things into my own hands.  Funny how there are some BIG things that we take to God without even thinking twice, yet so many little things I think I can handle.  How quickly this mindset leads me to an achey back.

The truth is I can only bear fruit when I remain in Him.  I can only do all things through Him who gives me strength.  So, taking Him out of the equation equals a fruitless, anxious me.

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”

2 Corinthians 12:9

Ah, bittersweet conviction.

He hates to be left out.

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