when rest is best…



The day before I would turn 27 weeks, my doctor came into the room. My usually laid back doctor gave me strict orders for bedrest. My sweet baby A in true first born fashion appeared ready to meet the world, and it seemed my body was trying to begin the labor process.

I cried imagining their tiny frames outside of mine. I knew about how much they weighed and it was so hard to picture them in the outside world. We came home that day and our lifestyle suddenly, drastically changed.

My second trimester was wonderful. After a couple months of throwing up all too easily, the nausea was gone, and my energy returned. The pantry got organized. I made bows. We made much needed storage runs to make room for our twins on the way in our two bedroom apartment. I even cooked and ate salmon. Then in November, I traveled to California, and to my parents house 5 hours away for Thanksgiving. I was gone a total of 20 days. I attended a conference, had a baby shower, was a bridesmaid in one of my dearest friends wedding, Chuck did a wedding, and we spoke at a school of ministry.

When we got back from Thanksgiving at my parents, I ferociously went through all the baby things my sister sent back with us. I washed all the newborn and preemie clothes, bought those sweet little baby hangers, and hung them in their closet. The swing was in multiple pieces, so I wrested with that a bit and got it all set up. We went to get our first Christmas tree at Lowe’s the next day, and I even helped carry it up to our 2nd floor apartment.

It felt so good to accomplish so much. I love to achieve. Then came the screeching halt. And in a moment, rest became what was best. For my personality, unfortunately I needed to be forced to a place of rest. I’d felt a still, small voice telling me to, “slow down” a good bit before my doctor prescribed it.

Something deeper is happening in me. Something I can’t see. Something I cannot check off on a to-do list. My body is growing life, two lives! Every day they are making strides and growing stronger. And I need to rest and let it happen.

It’s interesting to me that the God who never sleeps nor slumbers chose to rest on the 7th day. There are so many aspects of rest that I still don’t get, but clearly God wanted us to prioritize it. He wants to heal us from our performance based mindsets, and set us free to realize that as we rest He accomplishes so much more than we ever could.

Praying today that as a mama, I can be like Mary who “treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart,” and not get lost in the piles and to-do’s that are inevitable. Praying the same for you this Christmas season, that in the midst of the busyness you will find time to be still and to rest.



2012 in pictures!

A year in review…

January, I went on a trip with Steve Backlund to Casper, WY.  It was a great trip, the only downside, Daniel and I had to spend the night in the Denver airport, because we missed our last flight…


Then late January to early February I went to the Toronto area with 3 good friends.  We laughed until our stomachs hurt on many occasions.

ImageImageOn the way home, my “friend” Chuck shared with me some of his dreams and desires.  My eyes filled with tears as the things he shared were like pages out of my journal, word for word.  (more on that later)

Then there was San Diego-Image

In late March-early April, I led an amazing team of revivalists to Croatia with my “friend” Chuck.  We saw loads of salvations in both Bosnia and Croatia.


oh yeah and we went to VENICE on our day off…

ImageApril was my 28th birthday, here’s pics from a skype with some of my all-time favs-ImageAnd Chuck and I became official…

Imageour first picture. 🙂 on the river trail over looking the sacramento river. awe.

May was a visit from the always wonderful Layne Beckner Grime.


and then the dream team re-united for Trinidad-

ImageThose two are engaged now! Yay for Mel and Chris!ImageThen in June, home to Texas for a visit and for Chuck to meet the fam.

Image(we drove by my childhood home)

in July I flew to Canada to meet Chuck’s family-


and then on prince edward island on 7.7…ImageImagewe got engaged!!!

in August,

another visit to Texas, family and wedding planning.Image

Imagea visit to seattle to meet the brewsters and kornaros’

ImageSeptember was back to Wyoming-

Imageincluding a trip to Yellowstone with Pat and Fred!Imageand lots of wedding planning.

ImageAnd October was we bought a house!!


oh and wedding month in Texas-Image

just had to include this one. have you ever seen a cuter coffee date?!

ImageImageImagepainting pumpkins, and making icing


getting nails done.

Then best day ever!!!!ImageImage

Imageoff to St. Thomas for the honeymoon.

ImageThat brings us to November, when the book that I got to be a contributing author, Higher Perspectives, came out.  Such a dream come true, I love writing.

ImageThat brings us to December!  This month I did some nannying…


he said we do “team work” & I said ok!ImageAnd we ministered on the North coast of California and here in Texas, and now we are celebrating Christmas with our Texas family!

ImageAnd NOW I understand why I am so tired.  I think I’ll sleep right on through January!

Thanks for listening and looking. 🙂

Can’t wait to see what 2013 holds!

I am so thankful for the dreams that came true this year!  God is so good.  I got to help write a book, get married, and buy a house!

the hope of glory

Chuck and I began our trip to Texas at a church we love in Austin, TX.  Since we got married, we have traveled to four different churches, and I have been in more of the supporting from the front row mode.  

Between applying for Chuck’s green card, work, and getting the hang of home ownership, and bills I didn’t know existed, I didn’t have much energy left to teach.

Alas, the green card’s in the mail, I’ve fallen in love with online bill pay, I know I’m sure I’m a little behind the times, my head is back above water!  Before we went to Austin, I was praying about the church we would be visiting.  I felt that we were to emphasize on the glory, the presence of the Lord.  I scribbled a couple things into my journal and went about my day.

When we got to Austin, Chuck said he was feeling two scriptures that we should preach.  Wouldn’t you know that they were the same scriptures I had written in my journal a few days before?  God is fun. 🙂

We had fun co-preaching, and the Holy Spirit faithfully moved, awaking hearts, and penetrating truth into reality.

But I can’t seem to get over it.  I am stuck on this man Jesus.

I’ve been reading scriptures on this man, and they are coming to life in a new way.  I’ve known Him since I was a four year old girl, or perhaps before then, but his word is alive and active.

“For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
7 Of the greatness of his government and peace
there will be no end.
He will reign on David’s throne
and over his kingdom,
establishing and upholding it
with justice and righteousness
from that time on and forever.
The zeal of the Lord Almighty
will accomplish this.”

Isaiah 9:6-7

What a good reminder that the government is upon his shoulders!

Who doesn’t need a wonderful counselor?

He is mighty, stronger than any force of creation.

He is an everlasting Father, there is no end to the heart of our heavenly Father.

And the Prince of Peace, oh how I need Him, every hour, every moment of my day.

In light of the present day tradegies and disappoints I challenge us to look upon this man of Jesus.  In Him we can find what we need.  

My heart aches with the news reports of innocent lives taken, and I cried yesterday during a st. jude commercial.  It’s not being immune to these things.  They hurt.  Not only our little hearts, but also the heart of our everlasting Father.

And we must find refuge for this pain.  Refuge in the presence of this man Jesus.

“The Son is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation.  For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him.  He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy.  For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him,  and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.

Colossians 1:15-20

“To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.”

Colossians 1:27

Here’s the really beautiful part, if you are a believer this beautiful man dwells within you.  

We have unlimited access to His presence.  That’s what the resurrection did.  He overcame death so that we could be restored to the everlasting Father.

I pray that every moment on this Christmas season is filled with the awareness of Christ’s presence.